I realized that my security instinct was kicking in – I’m not directly threatened – but my instinct is still kicking in. Okay, acknowledged.
I started thinking about all the “threats” that my system was reacting to, and .. after sharing them with my sponsor, realized, I could zoom out and get a perspective.
Here is my perspective (click to zoom in):
Specifically, there are two sub-sections which I need to zoom in on:
This is the “well, either things will go to shire or they won’t, and as much as I can figure, I should take actions to affect the outcome, and me harm none.” branch.
This is the “catastrophic failure of society” branch.
I had to think pretty hard about the green arrow – this is related to me choosing to arm myself or not (in a way). There’s a subset of “short term society crash” vs “long term society crash” where my answers are different – I think I would arm myself to “keep my peace and order” until society order is restored. I don’t know about long term crash.
Okay, good. I have a framework in which to rest my fear.
Society hasn’t folded, so I guess I’m at “Discern Actions” stage. There’s actually more to it than that:
This is the tumultuous part. This is when the inputs that are coming in the eyeballs cause discord in the brain. Best thing I can do at this point:
- Don’t shut down, let it in. Need information for the next stage, knowledge of what is going on.
- (at least not me) don’t react in indignation. Indignation may be short term good for my emotions, but its not a long term strategy. Good news: plenty of other people to carry the indignation immediate action torch for me.
- This is the point where one has a decent enough perspective of what’s going on, that one understands the system that is in play. Now the better vs worse actions are visible.
- Act without expecting outcomes.
Thats all I have for now.