Levels of Being Freaked Out

flowchartoffreakedoutness2The events playing out at the airports freaked me out over the last few days.

I realized that my security instinct was kicking in – I’m not directly threatened – but my instinct is still kicking in.  Okay, acknowledged.

I started thinking about all the “threats” that my system was reacting to, and .. after sharing them with my sponsor, realized, I could zoom out and get a perspective.

Here is my perspective (click to zoom in):

 

 

Specifically, there are two sub-sections which I need to zoom in on:

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This is the “well, either things will go to shire or they won’t, and as much as I can figure, I should take actions to affect the outcome, and me harm none.” branch.

Secondly:

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This is the “catastrophic failure of society” branch.

I had to think pretty hard about the green arrow – this is related to me choosing to arm myself or not (in a way).  There’s a subset of “short term society crash” vs “long term society crash” where my answers are different – I think I would arm myself to “keep my peace and order” until society order is restored.  I don’t know about long term crash.

Okay, good.  I have a framework in which to rest my fear.

Now What?

Society hasn’t folded, so I guess I’m at “Discern Actions” stage.   There’s actually more to it than that:

Awareness

This is the tumultuous part.    This is when the inputs that are coming in the eyeballs cause discord in the brain.   Best thing I can do at this point:

  • Don’t shut down, let it in.  Need information for the next stage, knowledge of what is going on.
  • (at least not me) don’t react in indignation.  Indignation may be short term good for my emotions, but its not a long term strategy.   Good news: plenty of other people to carry the indignation immediate action torch for me.

Acceptance

  • This is the point where one has a decent enough perspective of what’s going on, that one understands the system that is in play.  Now the better vs worse actions are visible.

Action

  • Act without expecting outcomes.

 

Thats all I have for now.

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