Missed Metformin Dose

I forgot to take my metformin this morning at 7am! OMG! What shall I do?

Well, according to Wikipedia, the half life is between 4 to 8.7 hours. I assumed 6 hours. Thanks to a little googling, the formula to use is below. I modelled it based on taking my morning pill at 5pm when I got home and skipping my evening pill (which is not at 7pm, but usually around 9pm to 11pm), and:

The formula:

I like useful math

Heart Rate with Fever

Been a long time since I posted.  Lots of stuff going on; no lack of that; just lack of priority…  Well, one of the things I’m looking at is “why did I post”, looking at those motives, calling them into question, and redirecting energies.     That could have been another post, if I were to post that stuff .. see how meta this is?

Anyhow, here’s an interesting thing that developed over the last few days.   I started feeling crummy, definitely crummy by Monday 7pm or so.  Ended up with a fever.  Better now.   Looked back at Heart Rate data, and … I can tell!   That heat has to come from somewhere, right?

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Sunday is provided as a reference for a normal day.   HR hanging between 70 and 100.

In case it was a stomach bug – Monday 9am: Instant Oatmeal from Aldi   12pm: Chipotle Steak Bowl

Monday, about 3pm, you can see it start to rise.  I didn’t realize I was sick until about 6pm.  At the time, the single read temperature was 98.9 degrees, compared to my normal of 98.6 or is it 96.8 I can never remember… not enough to count.

Tuesday, I had an important meeting at work, so I went in .. then headed home.  Slept a long time.    About 6pm, actually detected the fever at 100.5, took a Tylenol.    Heart rate and fever started marching back down. 

Wednesday – kinda-working-from-home — my appetite seems to be coming back. 

Pretty cool stuff.

Life stuff leads to Leaf EV

Life has been in flux since the end of March.  I thought I’d take April off and recharge, but life had other plans.  In very short order:

  • Death of a human family member in my extended family
  • Death of our canine family member in my immediate family
  • Death of a Prius via large Pothole and frame damage

Not going to dwell there.  However, the last one is launching me in the following directions:

  • Purchase of an EV to replace the Prius

This LEAFS me in a bind.  the EV thing is huge.  Do I blog about it? Do I tweet about it?  Does anybody care?  Do I just tell my friends?    Should I vlog?  ???

I’ve started a thread on Facebook – on a photo – where I’m taking questions.   https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10156221680033444  .. if you have any questions, please feel free to ask there, leaf a comment comment here, or  tweet at me @sunjeevgulati.

I’ve got a spreadsheet going where I’m keeping track of charge-times and distances travelled.  I’m sure there will be a blog post on that later.

Overall, the map of what I’ve learned so far, thanks to draw.io.  Green = specific to me.  If you’re buying a LEAF, you will learn what these things are.

LEAF information

Gah, found a bug.  “S” Trimlevel also has a 3.3 Kwh charger.  And note, these are all pre-2018 LEAF’s.. they seriously upgraded in 2018.  Used price on those isn’t low enough yet, I needed a car payment under $300, which is also why no Tesla Model 3 Smile 

Enough for now.

Optimizing Cycling

Now that we have youtube, I watched some videos on “Fitting” a cycle.  Armed with that info – maybe my bicycle is not the best fit for me, but I could change some things.

imageI rode the same route three times .. ignore the dark part, that’s me putting the app on “pause”, but apparently it continues to record while doing so, which is actually great.  Its about 1.1 miles mostly up-hill.  I did it three times ..

Look at the pink.  That’s my speed going up the hill.  Note how second and third ones were definitely better.

Look at orange.  That’s my heart rate.  Look at how second and third ones were higher.

Here’s what it was: 

  • My seat was not high enough.  As a result, on the downstroke, at the 3pm point, my knee was actually out beyond where the pedal was – which brings some strain into the system. As a result, my legs hurt  .. kneecaps back to hamstrings .. so my heart couldn’t drive my legs as hard as my heart actually could.
  • 2nd trial – I brought my seat up about 2 inches ** , so that my leg was almost fully straight but my foot still parallel to the ground when the pedal was at its lowest.    I also inflated my tires up to 70 (they were at 40 before), which maybe helped some as well – although you’d think you’d see that on the downhill.  I guess air resistance trumps rolling resistance there.  ** because the seat rises up and to the back, raising the seat also moved me back a little bit. 
  • 3rd trial – I brought my seat up another inch or so, so that my foot points a bit down at the lowest spot.  It also for sure got my knee behind the line of the pedal when the pedal is at 3 o’clock.  It was a bit uncomfortable, but … seemed smoother, and .. the heart rate vs speed graph seems to agree.   I also reinstalled the bar-ends so that my hand position was further out, and I think that shows up in the downhill speed (the part not marked with pink) is higher for this trial. 

This could also all be B.S.   It could also be that:

  • The evening progressed and it got cooler
  • I drank more water so the weight of the bike went down
  • I got more properly warmed up.

Things I did not do that would probably make things even better:

  • Put my seat further back.  Its as far back as it can go.
  • Use a lighter bicycle.  Mine is a hybrid with shocks and stuff .. quite heavy.
  • Take off my very heavy bicycle pack (leftover from RAGBRAI.  I needed somewhere to stick my towel and other stuff for my commute to work.  Don’t leave home without your towel!  (Don’t panic!)

Things that I am doing already:

  • I’m using .. clips?  and cleats?  I don’t know the names of them.  Basically, i have power on the upstroke as well, I just have to remember to try to bring my knees up to touch my arms.

The real test will be riding to work .. I hope on Monday .. and compare that against last Monday, see how I do.

I am excited.

Running Metrics

Looking at (some) of my numbers from this round of getting back into running –

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  • This does not take into account exhaustion (time of day) or heat
  • The graph does not take into account distance – in general, over longer distances, your body can do less for a given HR.

Most of the numbers are in about the same line – the green line (which is data between 7/2 and 7/19). 

You can see me actually being worse than the blue line (which is data from 6/3 – 6/10).

However, notice that once I got serious and did a “long run” at low HR (the 125 HR on 7/19 which ended up at 90 minutes), my next performance jumped to the north significantly.  This is what HR training (LONG and slow, 50% between L1 and L2) can do for you.

Or, maybe I’m full of falafel and the next piece of data I get will be completely different.

This is kinda fun.   I wonder if I could convert this into a 3D sculpture of sort.

Blue Apron–Timelapse + Minor Analysis

I am investigating different ways to go about eating.  First up to try: Blue Apron.

There are a gazillion reviews of it, so I won’t focus there; instead I’ll go for my reaction.

Timelapse

First, here’s a timelapse of me preparing https://www.blueapron.com/recipes/potato-artichoke-quiches-with-romaine-orange-salad .  The time covered is from 5:54pm to 7:15pm or so – from the time my wife picks the recipe to me plating the food.

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Analysis

Going through the video at normal speed, and inventorying myself:

Stage Their Est Me Comments
analyze recipe so I don’t miss anything. (none) 5:56-6:04
8 min
The text is pretty scrunchy, so I convert it to a flowchart of sorts.  I don’t refer to the flowchart again, but connecting all the things in a flow helps me consider everything.
Get Hardware (none) 6:05-6:08
3 min
Pots, pans, salt, pepper, oil, etc… and bowls for ingredients.
Unpack food (none) 6:08-6:11
3 min
Sorting 2 recipes, I had already made one.
Arrange (none) 6:11-6:13
2 min
I wanted everything easily visible and available in its own bowl.
Prep 15 min 6:13-6:31
18 min
I slowed down on the orange, I think. It was frozen-ish and my hands got numb.
Cook: 35-45 min 6:32-7:14
48 min
Broken down further
  Taters 12-13 min 6:33-6:46 13 minutes
  Taters+Art 2-3 min 6:46-6:49 3 minutes
  Mix with Egg   6:50-6:52 Everything till starting to pour them in
  Pour them   6:52-6:53 I was afraid of missing.
  Bake 18-20 min 6:54-7:14 20 minutes.  Thank you Timer.
  Salad   6:58-7:01 (Extra Salad Chopping)
Plating   7:14-7:16 2 minutes
(eating) Not included in the time lapse.
Cleanup 7:35-7:44 Unload + Load Dishwasher, Clean stove.

So end-to-end time with no technical debt: 2 hours.

It was quality time, with my wife hanging in the Kitchen with me as we chatted about stuff.

So Is It Worth It?

To try to analyze it more objectively, I think its a 3-D plot.

For Health Level, its a bit arbitrary.  1= bottom, 2=mid, 3=good.  Circle size = bigger = healthier.

I did not include Tastiness.

   

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The labels overlapped, its in the bottom right of the grid.

So,

  • Its healthier but much more time-costly than going to a place like Noodles & Co which is 20 minutes away.
  • Its better than costlier long-wait-restaurants like Mikato. 
  • Its about the same as driving 40 minutes to the Whole Foods to eat at the buffet there.
  • Amortizing the cost over 4 meals, its probably the same as going to a grocery store to shop, and then cook, something healthy .. maybe.  I don’t have actual samples on this yet.  I will soon.
  • I put Soylent on there. 
    • Assuming you don’t have an adverse reaction (I do)
    • and you don’t have objections to the idea
    • its “perfect” nutrition, very fast, and at fairly low cost. 
    • Its not friendly with my diabetes, either.

When viewed through this lens, I guess its okay.  Its not earth-shatteringly better, its just.. more tuned. 

Summary (so far)

You have to like, and have the time, for the cooking.

If you like cooking, and hate shopping, and like trying new things, it would be PERFECT for you.

For me, cooking is okay, the hard thing for me is the time.

I have one more recipe from them to try, then its off to Green Chef or something like that.

Strength Progress

Very quickly –  don’t have time to make this too pretty..

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This is an overlay of two charts.  

The blue dots comes from a mousotron log.

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Import to excel, Fixed width

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Formulas (click to zoom) – Hint: Don’t reset the counter, its easier if you don’t.  

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The lines come from measuring my strength using two household items.

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I do a full-hand test, I do a per-finger test averaged; and I do that for both left and right hands. 

The set of lines along the top = Left hand, my good hand.

The set of lines along the bottom = Right hand, my recovering hand.

Summary

I think what I’m seeing is, I had a nice bit of recovery, and then I started using my hand more, and so my recovery has slowed down, but its still recovering.

My Right Forearm is Toast

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I am writing this blog post mostly using a microphone.

I think I’ll try to do this in one shot, clean it up later but keep the original version around, so that the blemishes and problems with voice dictation can be seen.This is not a good sample though, because I am not using a headset: my Turtle Beach microphone has a TRS connector and the Samsung Surface doesn’t have that input.

I am having difficulty using my right hand (lateral epicondylitis) and in an effort to heal I am choosing not to use it for at least 3 weeks. This has led to several discoveries:

Taking things for granted Discoveries:

There are several things built into the muscle memory of my right hand.  For example in Visual Studio, Intellisense.  When a suggestion shows, to choose it is apparently down arrow enter, but when my left hand tried, it tried pressing enter and did not know about the down arrow involved.

I discovered that my brain would output code at the same speed that my hands could put it in. (Perhaps my brain puts it out faster than my hands can put it in and that is why I am having a problem). Now down to typing with one hand, I simply cannot keep up! I get frustrated, and the thoughts that were in my brain disappear leaving me wondering what I was typing.

I have to reevaluate how I am going to be effective at coding over the next few weeks.

Directions and Challenges

I am going to see a doctor whom I trust and see where she thinks I should go. I am hoping that rest will let my body self heal, but if there are major tears in the tendon etc that might need a different level of attention. I am very reluctant to go there. I have heard that once you invade, complications arise.  Bottom line: I need diagnostic stuff, x-ray or something, to determine what the state of things are under the skin.

I have been trying to find resources online that state exactly what the mechanism is for ice and compression leading to healing. I see a lot of sources that indicate that inflammation in the body’s attempt to recover in which case how can I get more inflammation? 🙂 (A: Graston Method is one.)

I have another problem as well: by using my left hand more now, it too is in danger of burning out.  Friday I think my active left arm hurt more than my slinged right arm.

I have watched videos of people using various speech synthesis program to do programming. my reaction was: OMG that is so slow! I am hoping that if I do something like draw onto paper first and get the code out quickly, then I will be able to take my time typing it into the computer in a relaxed and optimal way. I wonder if I could hook up a midi keyboard to something that types in code for me.  lots and lots of macros.

Something very nice about my current employer colon he has had to go to this kind of pain as well, about two years ago.

Tools:

Here are the various tools and tricks that I have learned:

Typing one handed with a living room style small chicklet keyboard: this minimizes travel distance between keys; however I had a hard time finding a small keyboard which also had function keys. Wife and I found one, will try it on Monday.

I am now much more aware of the muscle tension in my forearm while typing.  Normally I would tense up everything and then out would come a burst of keystrokes.  I am now trying to be aware of keeping everything relaxed and returning to zero after every keystroke. 

Four ways of limiting motion:

1. Tennis elbow brace – bad. cut off a lot of blood circulation and ended up being less than effective, because my problem is along the entire length of the muscle / tendon and not just in the elbow region.

2. Sling: a lot better. the first two days using the sling, my hand definitely went into repair and recovery mode. however, the sling dug into my neck of lot and can be very uncomfortable.

3. Athletic Tape:  bind my right hand fingers together to prevent the temptation to use them.

4. Wear a glove on my right hand: this is very effective in stopping me from using it accidentally. However, it is not as healing for my hand as a sling, but it is better on my neck.

I find it very funny that my attempt to say third came out as a turd

Another thing that deserves a metnion is KT tape.   I used it for a week or so prior to becoming serious and using a sling.  It provides a lot of good support, but at the expense of skin sensitivity, as the support comes from elasticity of the skin.   Eventually the skin rebels.

And now I have a cat who is trying to use the microphone as well

Emotion:

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No, I now have an opportunity to catch up on several books that I have not yet read, and to focus on working out and nutrition and things like that.

However, right now I am sad and just want to say cluck it all and watch TV shows and hide. and that’s okay, it’s just part of Grief. I am not sure I am out of denial yet. Maybe I’m near the pyramids. get it? Denial? the Nile? Ed used to make that joke all the time.

The other disadvantage of a voice dictation is that this laptop keeps thinking I am not doing anything, and shutting off in the middle of a sentence

Wish me well! I am now going to go back through this post and use my left hand to edit it so it is readable.  I also had a cat volunteer to sit on my right hand helping me not use it.

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More perspective about blood sugar

imageReading a book called “The Four Hour Body”.  It pointed out that even in really high GI things like Orange Juice, it might take 30 minutes for the full blood sugar thing to take effect.  And pasta, 1.5 hours. This was based on a normie  wearing a CGM and measuring. 

Then, separately? not in the book? doing the math:  100 mg/dL vs 5 L of blood (at best) = 5g of “sugar stored in the blood” buffer.   That’s way less than a meal.

So, I used to think that my blood was like this bucket that sugar got dumped into, and it hung out there till insulin took it somewhere else.  Well, that is kinda what happens, but “bucket” is incorrect.

Its more like a temporary sponge, a small buffer, that happily holds about 5g.  Its a transport.   It can overflow.  at 7.5g, bad things start to happen.  at 15g (300 mg/dL) really bad things happen.

The things that deposit into it:  

Liver during glucogenisis (body saying holy shift too low need more glucose), and digestion.

Things that consume it:

Ah, so here’s the happy little insulin thing.  Insulin definitely acts as the door-knocker that knocks on doors and tells them to open up and let the sugar in.  Which doors, one might ask?

Apparently there’s the doors on the Fat cells.  Yay Fat Cells!  Helping me survive the next famine, when all the little hamburgers are migrating off on the west coast at the In and Out watering hole.

But there’s also another door – the doors in active muscle tissue.

So if you do 40 air squats  (i can do 10, need to build up), that activates something in your muscles, specifically your big thigh quadriceps, that says “HOO BOY does ANYBODY have any GLUCOSE please?” .. and the insulin happily helps deliver it.    Drains the buffer, clears the sponge, ready for more digestion.  Follow that up with some nice pushups – or pullups, dude, if you can do them .. targeting the nice big muscles. Nice big sponges.    Or go walk up 12 flights of stairs.  Oh yeah.

I’m not sure how long after the exercise that receptor (he mentions it in his book, but not at the tips of my fingers) stays on.  I don’t have a CGM to help tell me, and I’m not spending the $, as I’m not type I, its not covered.

I’m also not sure if the action of delivering sugar to the blood is entirely osmosis or not.  Ie, there could be a large store of sugar in your digestive tract at some concentration, and when your blood drops below that concentration, then it migrates over.  Which lends itself to, what gut bacteria exist, and do they consume any of that sugar, and what’s the effects of that.   I don’t know the answers to that.

The point is, 1-2 hours after a meal which might have too much carb, one can use exercise to help “soak up” the sugar.  One does not have to burn that many calories, just activate it enough so that the muscles soak the sugar up.  Note that muscles can only hold a certain amount, though, i think its up to 100g?  your whole body can do about 400g total storage? 

The key numbers I’ve heard is that you want to get down below 140 mg/dL, to prevent certain kinds of cell death; and then below about 100 mg/dL  the body (for normals) stops putting out chunks of insulin; and once the insulin is gone, then your body can get back to finding other sources of glucose, like burning Fat.

What brought this up:

We went to see Marvel Age of Ultron on Wednesday night.    We had Noodles & Co for dinner, and then shared a large popcorn and M&M’s and a coke.   LOTS of sugar.  

After the movie, got home, took my sugar.  If it was over 140, i was going for a walk.  It was 235.   I went for the walk.  Got back 40 minutes and 2 miles later, 171.  Waited 30 minutes.. check again, is my body still dumping it into my system?  No, 146.  So its getting soaked up.  Good.    I don’t feel so helpless.

Note: my perspectives only.   Not a scientist, no research, just reading.  Could be wrong.

I hate Sugar

I hate what sugar does to me.

And by sugar, I also mean simple Carbs like Bread and Donuts.  Especially Donuts.

Yet, here I was again.   Friday Donuts showed up in the office.   “I wonder if it tastes just as good?”  I get tired of the mental battle.  I give in.  Chomp.   The chocolate glazed one is sickeningly sweet.  So I eat the sugar raised one instead, that one is almost perfect.    Slug some more coffee after it. 

Here’s what it does for me, if I am to be honest:

  • In about half an hour, I’m sweating.
  • The places where my muscles are tired and worn, like in my forearms – they hurt.  (wheat has this effect on me)
  • The skin on my feet dries up, goes gray.
  • My eyes change how they focus.  I now have to look through a lower part of my progressive lenses to achieve the same focus.
  • My brain wakes up – it gets excited.
    • But, I think it gets excited in an unorganized, random way.
    • Not as a finely Tuned Tool of Tantamount Thinkstruction.
    • It gets hard to hold a single thought down, instead, I start thinking of everything.
      • This is great for project management.  It is bad for coding.
  • 2-4 hours later, my brain crashes.  Intense sleepiness comes over me.  Its hard to think.
    • I can postpone this crash by sacrificing more sugar to the cause.

Under the Hood

Under the hood, here’s what I believe is happening:

  • I’m a Type II diabetic.  This means that while my body pumps out insulin, the insulin doesn’t work quite as well as it would in a normal person, so the sugar is not cleared from my blood quite as fast.
  • Any meal of more than about 25g of carb, depending on GI index of the food, spikes my blood sugar up beyond the point of my insulin being able to handle it.   I’ve clocked it at 165-200 before.  Which isn’t AWFUL, but it is over 140, the “toxic” level for certain types of cells.
  • With my blood sugar high, various other diabetic things happen – dryness, eyes, possible neuropathy (nerves screaming in pain and then dying) (hasn’t happened to me yet, though I occasionally have an isolated twinge, like a needle prick).
  • Eventually, 2-4 hours later, my body finally gets to the point where its clearing up the sugar.   My brain, used to the influx of sugar, senses things drying up, but it can’t switch to an alternate fuel source yet, and so I hit a wall.   Queue the need for a nap.
    • Sad thing is, it seems to want to crash as the blood sugar drops, not as it gets down to a certain level.  I’ve had crashes when my sugar was dropping at about the 130 range.

Even further under the hood, here’s more of what’s happening:

  • Because I pump out so much insulin, and insulin is a signal to the body, two things happen:
    • Insulin signals the body to store the excess sugar as fat.  This seems to happen around the belly for the most part – BEER BELLY!   (I wonder if its because the sugar didn’t get far from the intestines and then immediately got stored, before it could get further away)
    • Insulin prevents the body from burning fat.    So even if I’m starving, and my body needs energy, if my insulin levels are high, my body won’t burn fat; rather it will burn protein, or go into starvation mode. 
      • I measured this for myself several years ago.  By “this” i mean how my body will ignore the sugar that’s floating around.  Right when I first got diagnosed, and we were experimenting with dosages.  I went off my medications, my average blood sugar levels went up, but I was recording everything that I hate.  I averaged 1800 calories a day, ran, AND I gained 5 lbs, in a month.   I should have lost 5 lbs instead.  Calculations ensued – I deduced that my body was running on 1300 calories a day.  And I felt like crap.

And why the heck do I need a donut anyway?    These answers are specific to my weakness:

  • One author puts it as “Labrador Retriever brain”.  My brain is hooked on the sugar.  It LOVES it.  It was designed to love it.   It craves it.  Precioussssss.    Some folks have tons of willpower – I can have willpower, but it comes and goes in spurts, and if there’s something else big going on, that’s where my attention goes and poof! I’ve given in.
  • There’s a social aspect of it.   I want to belong, I want to participate in the customs going on around me.  I don’t want to be left out. 
  • I have memories of emotional happiness associated with some past occasions involving donuts (and bagels and danishes). (and little smoky sausages, and chocolate wafers, and orange juice, and spaghetti, and french fries, and … )

Recent changes in Diet

Lately, I’ve been listening to the Primal Potential podcast, and I read through the Bulletproof Diet book, and I’m trying something:

  • Bulletproof coffee for breakfast.
    • my body is already at a low level of insulin from my overnight fast
    • keep it at a low level of insulin, and give my body energy in the form of good quality fat
    • turns out, my brain is very sharp when running on fat. 
    • This is not a long term replacement for a real meal; just gets me past breakfast to lunch.
    • OMG trying to find an article that isn’t either a) debunking it or b) selling it, is really hard.  Try for yourself. 
  • Limited Carbs for lunch
    • 25-50g or so.
    • Quest bars
    • Hearts of Palm and Quinoa salad from CostCo
    • Trying to find other things that fit this mold.  Trader Joes has lots of little interesting things.  CANNOT do Panda express (wah)
  • Dinner = moderately healthy, but can go awry (pizza!) if the situation calls for it.

This was my plan till the Donuts showed up this morning. 

New Plan: Surrender

My new plan is to surrender to the donut.  Or the cake, or the pop tart.

  • I will take a plate.  This plate might be decorated or beautiful.
  • I will place said item on the plate, with great solemnity.
  • I will place said plate in the refrigerator.  Or perhaps under a non-see-through-lid in my office.
    • I could label it “Mogwai” – its cute, but watch out when you feed it.
  • at 3pm, I WILL CONSUME THE NOM NOMS ON THE PLATE.

Delayed gratification.  Let my body run without large insulin spikes until after lunch, if possible.   After the lunch spike dies down, then subject it to Donut.   Then the subsequent crash doesn’t affect my work-day.

Reserving the right to eat a bite of the donut, and throw the rest in the trash.  That’s a possibility too.  Preferably at 3pm.